in a recent conversation, a topic regarding a certain person(s) came up, and i blurted out wat was on my mind. the response i received in turn was a question:
"after so long, y r u still so angry?"
i'm sorry for all my animosity towards this person, not becoz i dun think this person doesn't deserve it, i'm just sorry i'm such a unforgiving person.
how can u act civilized to a person who has broken ur heart completely, and filled u with depreication of ur ownself? how do u forgive a person who has shattered ur soul into pieces and left u there alone to pick it up piece by piece, then try to reassemble it, only to find some pieces has disintegrated into a minute powder, leaving u never to be whole again?
a minute ago, i was cleaning up my msn space page.
i wanted to delete the stupid pics and blog posts there dat seemed to me like they were from a million years ago.
i deleted all the albums, but when i got to the blog part, i found myself hesitating.
i guess i didn't want to delete the posts, no matter how dated they seemed becoz they were a part of me. they were a part of my soul dat i had poured out to others.